Because most things in my life point back to recent decisions I’ve made. I must blog on these subjects. It’s the happenings of my life. So, I’m sorry if they seem repetitive. I don’t try and make them that way.
I’m not sure if any of you feel this way. Do you feel as I that the world is watching and waiting on a mess up?
I use to feel this way. Therefore I would try and be as perfect as possible. I felt the absolute need to please every single person that stepped foot into my life.
I have learned recently how unhealthy this was. And in turn, when I did mess up I messed up big. I also felt this made my mess ups into these huge deals. Because it seemed I didn’t mess up as often. I tried not to. I mean, I still try to not mess up.
I just did what everyone around me wanted me to do. I didn’t do what I felt God wanted me to do. I did things to please others. Sure, I did some things to please myself too.
I was going about my choices in life the wrong way. I would so completely exhausted from pleasing other people that when I would make a decision for myself it was a selfish and wrong choice. A rebellion in a way. Almost a subconscious decision. One made with not much thought either.
I had come to realize I don’t need to make decisions to please others or to please myself. But to please the Lord. This is the right way to go about it in my own personal opinion.
When you feel like the worlds eyes are all on you. It is very uncomfortable. Being a people pleaser is rough. It takes time to learn that you don’t have to please others. Not everyone is going to like your choices in your life. That’s just it. It’s your life. You must live it. You must do as you think is best. You live it.
You can’t live a life time of regret because you were too busy worrying bout what all others think of you.
It’s stressful, depressing, and makes anxiety worse.
Letting go of what others think of you is relieving.
I’m so thankful I’ve learned a lot. I’m so thankful I’ve found some growth in a really tough situation. I’m so grateful that I have grown up even more through every thing I have been through lately.
I’ve learned that learning from your own mistakes is the only thing to do. I’ve learned that in life there comes a time when you will go through some stuff. You’ll hit the bottom. You will wonder how you got there. You will wonder who you are. Then, unlike anything before…you discover more of yourself.
Self discovery is another beautiful thing in life. I seriously love learning more and more about myself daily.
Learning more and discovering who you are also helps in self love. Which my friends is probably one of the best things that has ever happened to me in my entire life. Self love is needed. But, that’s a whole other topic for another day.
So when you feel like the world is pressing down on you. When you feel like you can’t breath. When you feel judged. Just remember, it’s okay. You’re doing the best you can. Relax and don’t worry about what other may or may not say about you. Live your life. Love your life. And for goodness sakes, enjoy your life. I’ve said it time and time again…you only get ONE life. Live it. Love it. Enjoy it.
Thanks so much for reading,